What’s good, #FlightNation! We lost another tough one yesterday, making us 1-5 on this trip. I really would love to avoid posting our win-loss record at this point. The goal was for that to be 6-0 right now. I’d also love to say the ole “We should’ve won those games but…blah blah blah!” What I’m learning is wins are wins…losses are losses. You can always play better, you can always play worse. If, as a coach, I subscribe to that type of thinking, then for every win we obtain, I must also acknowledge how lucky we were to have played well AND that another team did not play well/made mistakes. Nah…I’d rather just go with wins and losses, learn from our mistakes, and do my job as a coach to make sure my teams get better and progress day by day…game by game.
Today is particularly dinner for me. It’s the anniversary of the day I buried my father. Oh how I wish he were alive today to see this. My dad and I had a tough relationship, but towards the end it was everything I needed it to be. I just wish I got more time like we shared that last month.
I used to be so upset with my dad. He tried to push me away from basketball. Part of it was his room was closest to our backyard. I know he hated to hear that basketball dribbling hours upon hours of each day (and night – LOL). The other part was just him wanting to protect me. I didn’t understand that until writing his eulogy.
Everyone was telling me I was crazy. I was very short, small in stature, and not very athletic, but God made me fall absolutely in love with the game of basketball. And while that passion boiled over, even in spite of failure after failure, I knew, deep down, I could never quit. But my dad wanted me to. In his words, He didn’t want to have to pick up the pieces when I failed.
My dad turned into one of my biggest fans in the end. Even my littlest accomplishments early on were huge in his eyes. Ohhhh…if he could see this though. This China tour. Yeah, I know he’s looking down and watching above, but I sure wish I could hug him and tell him all about it. I wish I could look for a souvenir from China to bring back to him. That’s what I really want, you know? And it’s fine. I understand that’s not what God wanted. And it’s ok. Im just sharing how I feel. Instead, I’ll share my experiences with my family and friends…my wife and daughters, first.
I intended to write more, but I actually don’t feel like it right now. I’ll drop another blog later tonight/tomorrow. We are having an amazing time, but it’s definitely a grind. Days like today make it a little tougher. Here’s to great memories, learning and growing opportunities, and treasured experiences!
Until next time…